Life right now overall is good, job sucks, money sucks more, teeth are doing well, or shall i say lack of teeth are going well, i had a job interview today at 9am and i felt that went good, family is good, and i've got the love of my life, so yeah.... i'm hoping that my interview was as good as i thought it went, she mentioned at the very end that she has quite a few "first interviews" but i should know by mid- to end of next week if i get a second interview.... I could really use a good paying and reliable job.

As far as me getting married, the way we see it, in July we're just going to go justice of the peace, so that i can go with him and live on base, b/c you know i mentioned that he wants to join the army. Then when we get home in a few years and saved up money, we're going to have the ceremony we both have dreamed of in Maine, b/c his Nana is old and i wouldn't expect her to travel, not to mention, he moved here for me, the least i could do is get married in Maine. And then we'll come home and have a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig reception party.... my family and friends and whatnot, but of course you know i'm going to invite people to the wedding but i don't think many will show considering how far away it is. But yeah that's where we stand now. We have it all planned out even though we're technically not engaged yet b/c we can't afford our wedding set yet, my rings are 800, his is 700. I told him he could get something cheaper for the time being like a place holder, but he says i deserve better. I love my man :D anyway, i'll quit rambling. i gotta go pick up the man from work anyway, yeah we're still sharing a car. but one day everything will get better.

Sooo yeah, long time no talk- er post. Well i'm finally getting my teeth pulled that i've been wanting for the most of my life. I now am down 7 teeth, and i feel so much better... while i'm on pain killers. lol. Keith my boyfriend from Maine is doing great, he's working his second week.  He wants to join the military in August, and i'm going with him. So we'll probably be getting married before hand :D YAY! but yeah. uh.... Beaumont sucks. My hours have been cut back so far i can't make my bills. I'm stressing out so bad, but Keith makes me smile. I love him so much. Hmmm, i think that's it for my update.... i'm not on the computer much anymore but drop me a line if you want to chat, i have unlimited calls. 248.420.3818

The other day Kristen and I were in the car going somewhere, that i can't remember, but she started nibbling on her finger and when i shot her a funny "what are you doing?" look she responded, "My finger tastes like licorice" OMG I JUST ABOUT DIED!!!

So then another time that i can't remember specifics sis sneezed and said peanut butter afterward. i told her that she has to say peanut butter before hand to stop the sneeze, and she replied... "I know but it was coming so quick it would have come out peanachoo" and yet again i could have died laughing...

                


Happy Birthday Pop we love you, and miss you! This last year and a half has been tough... but i know you're still watching over us.

Text from Kenny 9/28/07 8:22P

"Later i want to tell u somethin thats important that i have decided so when u get a chance call me"

I called him back... just got off the phone with him and he said THAT HE LOVES ME :D :D :D :D :D :D

Wow life has been... (for lack of a better word) interesting lately. I've put together many of the missing pieces of mine and Nick's relationship, and now I almost wish i didn't know. When Nick said to me that "there were things that he didn't ever tell me and would never tell me as long as he thought he could get away with it" i dropped it and completely forgot about the rest as soon as the specific lie i was trying to find out, was out in the open...
I never knew there was so much more, I was so much happier before finding everything out. I've been ripped apart all over again.

I tried warning the new one, but just as i said to her, she's too dumb struck now to realize that we're not trying to hurt anyone, but completely the opposite and warn her. but sadly enough, she too will have to learn the hard way. and i pray, it's never as hard for her as it has been for me...
 
I've made a complete circle. we broke up, and everything, the lying, threatening suicide and whatnot hurt me so deep until i finally got past it and got mad, then i started to forgive and was friends i gave him my trust again...and now i'm not even hurting again... i'm crushed, I've never been broken down to this point before... <<SOBS>> everything i thought we had wasn't... he's lied soo much. how did i not see it... what's wrong with me that he would do that...

<<REGAINS SOME COMPOSURE, AND WIPES TEARS>> And now that i've found an angel, the man God intended me to meet and love. Now  that i have him, my boyfriend's going into the Navy... which i have to remind myself, is a good thing... but... <<SIGH>> I'm going to miss him greatly, and part of me wishes he wouldn't go. I want to laugh and be happy, i want to hold him and have him hold me. I want to be able to cry to him and just never stop.

Then to put the icing on the cake, yesterday my dad was hospitalized.  Mom, Kenny, Kristen, and I ate in the car on the way up to see him. but Bobby rode in the ambulance and didn't get to eat, so we got him food and left it in the car, and when we got to the hospital we sent him to the car to eat and got him a bottle of water out of the vending machine. so i went out to take my brother the water, and he was done eating but just sat quietly in the car. i asked him what was wrong. and he said "the last time... i was at a hospital..." and his tears cut him off, but i knew how it ended. last time we were in a hospital, unknown to us at the time, was one of the last times we ever saw him alive.  I tried to comfort him.  saying dad would be fine. but Pops death is still an open wound and nothing will ever completely heal that. I love him so much <<CRYING AGAIN>> and i miss him.

Sometimes life just hurts so bad...

I'm glad i'm finally getting to this. these are sweet texts and i thought you wouldn't mind if i shared :D
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after two bad days at work i finally had a good one. I was on MJC for one, and second things ran smooth. then during the dinner line i went to grab a shake from the frezzer and when i turned around Cathy T. jumped out and scared the living daylights out of me. i squalled! i know i was bright red but i couldn't help but laugh. it was sooo funny. and she was laughing. i got back on my station, and Melissa who was on setup thought someone had fell. i told her what happened. then a little later i was playing with Mel and said, thanks for calling out that kosher grape juice. and she calls out "SOMETHING SPECIAL FOR MJC!" and we both laughed and i responded "thanks now that it's already down here. it was so fun. i had a great day :D i love days like this!

the other night it was so funny, Kenny was taking off his socks and after he took the first one off he said
"boy i got a chill, glad i didn't take 'em both off at once i would have gotten pneumonia"
OMG i laughed so hard. i thought i was going to bust a gut

Yesterday, Pat came down and gave us our washer (finally) Christina was over, and it was a wonderful surprise for Mom. with Pat, Jack, Dad, Bobby, Mom, Me and Sis we got the washer down here, then Kenny came home with my car and Uncle Kenny and hooked it up for us. we were outside visiting and we all heard a loud pop! and i jumped up almost went into the living room, and someone told me to check the basement. i don't even remember running down here, but i rounded that corner and saw about 5 inches of water on the floor. i said some curse word i can't remember and all of a sudden everyone was down here. Mom started moving the Christmas boxes out of the water, i moved the blanket that was covering the drain, Kenny unplugged my electrical stuff, and Sis got the chords off of the floor. everyone concerned about something different. but we all got the job done... in about 10 minutes the drain did its job and sucked out all the standing water, then we just started drying stuff. in about 20 minutes total we had all the wet out and everything back in order, and the popped hose back on the washer. I was just happy that with all that water that nothing got ruined, nothing even got the slightest bit damaged. the only things that got wet were dryable. and my dresser, my real wood, not easily movable dresser, wasn't touched by the water at all. even though it was on the same half of the basement as the washer. I'm so glad, i was trying to figure out how to lay out the room so that i could plug in all my stuff, and that the good furniture was out of the way that water could and would be comming from in the event that soemthing leaked. i actually even used marbles to see which way water would flow... i'm a goof. but in the end, the 10 minutes of playing with marbles saved a lot of stress. :D i love being right

Lisa and I went to DTE to see Gretchen Wilson last night. When we got there i saw Jyl Forsyth and Chuck Edwards so i had them sign my shirt. (Now i only need Linda Lee) I got a picture with Lisa and Eric Church :D i was so happy! we also went in and saw the Urban Lounge, and then got a great spot on the hill. a lady came up laid her blanket in front of me and asked if we'd watch her blanket, while she meets Trent tomlensen, that she had backstage passes. i told her yeah, and she said she'd buy me a soda. Then the country station people that give out stuff, came around i made eye contact with her and she came on over to give me my pick of some envelopes (last time i won $20, and last time Lisa went to a concert she won ticket upgrades to 3rd row.) I picked meet and greet passes, to meet GRETCHEN WILSON!!!!!!!!!!! I gave her a hug, she signed my T-shirt, and i got pictures. OMG SHE WAS SO SWEET! she's short too, she's just a tad taller than me with those crazy heels on. lol. (digitals to come when lisa gets 'em) then when we got back Eric Church was just about done, but several guys had folded up our blanket to almost nothing and had taken our spot. but they left before Gretchen came on and then our friends from in front of us said that they had open seats in the pavilion that they had saved for us and we went down the concert was just AMAZING!

so i got the stuff out of the old apartment for nick... and i got all his stuff in a bag, and the plunger i stuck the handle in the bag but left the head sticking out so that nothing touched it. tried to get in touch with him all day, stayed up an hour for him to get it and then he bitched me out for it... b/c i should have put plastic over the head. i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sick of being blamed and bitched at for doing something good. i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Fucking happy i'm done.

my first post from my new home... that was originally all this post said... i was happy and fine... then i saw Nick and my day has been ruined. yeah, well, fuck you very much.

saw two bumper stickers today that i just loved.

"My child is an honor student, but my president is a moron"

"If you're going to ride my ass, you could at least pull my hair"

Yesterday Kristen and i were driving around and she brought her Billy Gilman CD and we were listening to it and she said "mind if I fast forward it to a song that i feel relates to what you're going through?" and i said go ahead I've listened to this CD a hundred times before and yesterday was the first time I'd ever heard this particular one the way it was meant to be heard. the song is called "'Til I Can Make It On My Own"

here's another old quiz which i can finally post b/c sam told me how to :D

Thanks Sam for helping me figure out what my problem was with my quizzes :D i should have gone to you a long time ago

What Love are you Fated for? ~AWESOME anime pics!~

You want a Beautiful love, soft but passionate. You are probably very old fashioned and polite. You can't stand rude people, wolf whistles are to you only dis-respective and immature. You love nature and everything beautiful in life. You will fall for a guy that makes you forget about the rest of the world. Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars? *cough*rate*cough* ^^ Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

I LOVE MY BABY GIRL I FILLED UP TODAY. THREE HUNDRED AND THIRTY TWO POINT NINE MILES DIVIDED BY NINE POINT SEVEN GALLONS (at $3.39 a gallon (32 Dollars in total)) EQUALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




332.9/9.7=34.3 MILES PER GALLON BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

1. yeah so helping dad move, i scratched Jill. my baby girl... i scratched her. :(
2. On a good note, i think i have a job. Taking care of a 9 yr. old girl named Maddie. ::KEEPS FINGERS CROSSED::
3. and... YAY i won 6th place in sammy's comment war! whoo hoooo

:D some pictures of Nick and Marissa, my neighbor's oldest daughter. I love this little girl and someday will steal her for myself.                            

I appologise, this will be a lengthy post b/c i forgot to do April birthdays ::PALM-FACE:: again... (i'm sorry guys i love you!!!) and i've got some stuff to tell you, that i don't know if it really happened... you'll see what i mean.